Coffee Stained Lip's & Cigerettes & Fingertip's

The world is so moudly,

and my room is getting so damn small that it's like a bat cave

and I'm here hanging from my ceiling waiting to fall and crash and crumble again.

Everything remind's me of him and I can't delete a thing.

I am the loose echo in your voicebox

Chain smoking cigerettes at 5 A.m because I couldn't sleep

glassy glitter tear stained eye lashs.

My minds filled with jitters & cracked bones,

emotions, feelings,thoughts

and I literrally feel ill inside

just thinking about him..

I was scared because you were dissolveing in front of me.

Smokeing ma's burnt out cigerette butt's

searching for a headspin within something, anything.

My brain keeps yelling and everything is so loud

I just want to to fade out so I can excist again

An organ is playing the same beats

over and over again inside my head

Xaiver is gone, I never had a chance to meet him

he would have brightend my thoughts

and made everything seem less empty

My mouth tastes like an ashtray

I don't mind.

Creating subtances to disolve my bones and disappear

Leaves and dirty wool

Can we camp out where noone else knows, forever

Hide and become nothing more then the grass in the ground?

Danceing with the figments of our imaginations

just you and me together.

kissing the spaces between the cracks of seperation, I feel so numb inside.

Trying to find beauty in this endless black hole

I want to walk down a street and admire all the beauty not the defects

I don't want to excist here, I just want to disappear.

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