Lights, midnight bites and lavender

Typeing contemplating then deleting anything with the thought of you
like a mind surgery
I want to erase these thoughts of you
I want to fly to the moon and catch all the stars in my pockets on the way up and use them for magical powers to fix the mess everyones made.
Coffee highs
I can't shed tears or cry
tonight's the night tonight's the night
I want to try but I'm to weak to fragile to make a movement or speak
cure me.

I'll sing to you from a sickness
smothered by a blanket fort
of an imagination jumping
from your my mind to yours
I'm sick of these countless seconds
I don't want our minds to entwine

I've been trying to catch the light on my window cill but it keeps getting faded out by the shadows

discontent with these emotions

so i'm disconnecting myself from them all

Writeing your name on icey window cells like I'm twelve again
trying to pick up the peices when I can't even put down the pen

Coffee Stained Lip's & Cigerettes & Fingertip's

The world is so moudly,

and my room is getting so damn small that it's like a bat cave

and I'm here hanging from my ceiling waiting to fall and crash and crumble again.

Everything remind's me of him and I can't delete a thing.

I am the loose echo in your voicebox

Chain smoking cigerettes at 5 A.m because I couldn't sleep

glassy glitter tear stained eye lashs.

My minds filled with jitters & cracked bones,

emotions, feelings,thoughts

and I literrally feel ill inside

just thinking about him..